Positive Thinking

I saw a bird eating berries. As it flew away I could see the magic of nature. The bird ate the berries which gives it energy to live then it carries away the seeds of the berries and plants them elsewhere so berries might grow elsewhere.

As I envisioned this process it revealed the true magic of life. What really matters in life. The balance of life. I could see this process happening all around me.

They say that we should think positive. But what is positive? They say that positive is what feels good to each person. This means that positive has no actual definition other than what causes a person to feel good.

If things in life are going your way in life then you would view it as a positive. Does this mean that your positive is everyone’s positive?

When I watch a skyscraper being built I don’t view this as a positive. Yet, it is a positive to those who are building it and making millions of dollars. I see destruction as they see wealth. Universally, is that skyscraper a positive? Does it benefit nature?

Humans seems to stand outside of the magic of nature. The simply process of life. They have deemed their importance to be above that of nature. Their positives are not in align with the positives of life.

I read an article about how those who believe in climate change are often seen as hypocrites because they still do the things that they believe cause climate change. It was compared to cigarette smoking. People are so addicted to the way of life that they can’t stop, even though they know it is causing great damage.

Is this addiction actually a universal positive? That, just as with cigarette smoking, humans will simply keep doing what they are doing until they destroy themselves. They continue to live their human “positives” which are, in reality, a positive for nature because nature, which is ever patient, will win in the end.

It seems negative only to humans because they are the ones who are threatened by their own behavior.

Nature has tried over and over again to balance the human population yet humans have found ways to defy these methods of nature, deeming nature to be the enemy because they believe that she is trying to kill them. They fight against nature and with each temporary victory they declare this a positive.

When thinking of positives, it seems that positives often lead to negatives. They seem to go hand in hand just as life and death go hand in hand in nature. Humans think that it is a positive to extend their life expectancy but if this is not in balance with the births then it will actually be a negative.

Humans have a way of thinking more of themselves than they really are. From one time thinking the Earth was the center of the universe and now they see themselves as the central theme of the Earth. Their hunger for control is led by their need to feel good. To think positive. In the end, their addiction to feeling good may well lead them to their own demise.

Beyond Belief

A few weeks ago I came home to find a flyer on my door. It was colorful and vibrant. It said there was going to be a picnic at the park with food, drinks and music. It was with a local Christian church. I laid the flyer down on the counter and didn’t think much of it.

As the day approached I didn’t having anything going on so I decided to go to the park for the picnic. It was nearby. An enjoyable walk.

As I came to the park I could hear the music. A live band playing modern Christian music. I didn’t think much of it. What’s a party without music? There were kids running about and mostly adults sitting at picnic table lined up.

There was a lot of food lined up on tables at the front of the set up. I walked around and observed. They played soccer out in the field. The mothers watched over the young ones as they wandered about getting into this and that. Some were playing on the playground equipment. Groups of men stood around talking while some women stood aside listening inattentively to whatever the men were saying. There were groups of women talking while children hastened about them.

All seemed normal so I went and filled a plate with food. Of course I had to pick and choose foods that I actually eat. I was able to find enough to enjoy. I passed on the sugary punches and sodas. I found some water which was perfect.

I sat at a table with other men sitting about talking. I didn’t say anything. One took notice of me and moved over to sit across from me. He smiled and introduced himself. I returned the nicety. He then said, “I haven’t seen you before.”

I looked at him and smiled, replying, “I haven’t see you before either.” He laughed seemingly uncomfortable. He could see that I’m not an open book to just anyone.

“A few weeks back I found a flyer on my door inviting me to this picnic. I wasn’t doing anything so I came to the picnic. Is this a problem?”

“Oh no, it’s no problem. You are very welcome here. I was just wondering if you were a new church member.”

“No. I’m not.” I said plainly, without any emotion then went back to eating. First I gave my love and gratitude to Mother Goddess by kissing a broccoli floret before eating it. It is how I say grace.

He stared at me as I was eating. I found this strange. He then seemed to find the courage to speak, as if it took courage to speak with me, “Would you like to attend our church. It is very nice and casual. We have music and prayers. The people are very friendly.”

“If the people here are part of your church then then do look very friendly. Thank you for the invite to your church but I don’t have any desire to worship your god. I just came here to be friendly and spend some time with people.”

“That’s fine.” he said. “We’re glad you came to the picnic. Enjoy yourself.”

“Thanks.” I said.

I continued eating slowing, enjoying watching the people and all the motion and commotion. The children are so fun to watch as they play and do what adults are no longer allowed to do.

As I was eating some apple pie, a little indulgence I couldn’t resist, the man slid back over. He had been watching me the entire time out of the corner of his eye. I was aware of this. “Can I ask you a question?”

“Depends, but we won’t know until you ask it.” I knew what was coming.

“Do you believe in out Savior Jesus Christ?”

I just looked at him and shook my head, not as an answer but out of sadness for him. He felt so compelled to know what I believed but nothing about me. I smiled, picked up my plate and walked away.

“It was just a simple question. I didn’t mean to offend you.” he called out behind me. I just smiled being that he hadn’t offended me. I simply have no desire to debate religion. I’ve been there before. I’ve had this very question posed to me so many times and, when I say that I worship a Goddess and a God, they just don’t know what to think. My answer doesn’t spur curiosity. It seems to create fear in them. The get defensive and start telling about their Christ. They like to say they are opened minded but so rarely do they want to know about me, only what I believe.

Truth is, I would be friends with them. I would come to their houses and enjoy dinner with them. I would even do the dishes afterward. Even though I don’t care much for sports I would watch a game with them. I would do all of this if they wanted to know me, not only see me by what I believe.

As I walked home I thought, “I am so tired of Christianity. Not angry, just tired of their constant badgering and pressure to believe what they believe.”

I knew what would happen before I went to the picnic, but I always like to hope that it would be different. I didn’t ask them to build a fire and all of us dance in a circle around it. I listened to their strange music without complaining. I enjoyed the company of all the people and experiencing them as themselves. Why is it so important that I believe what they believe? Sadly, the answer to this question and many others is, “Because the bible says so.”

This week I came home and found a flyer on my door. I was inviting me to a pool party at my apartment complex. It said there would be food, drinks and music. I thought, “That would be cool.” I then looked a the bottom of the flyer. The pool party is sponsored by the cable company. On the back of the flyer it showed deals for cable internet, phone and TV.

I had gone to these parties before. They seem innocent enough when I first get there. The food is cheap snack and little tiny cans of soda. As I walk in I have to go through a sales pitch. I threw the flyer away.

As I threw the flyer away I was reminded of the picnic at the park put on by the local church. They didn’t want my presence or friendship. They wanted to sell me their “Savior” in exchange for some food. Just as the cable company wanted to sell me a new cable package in exchange for some cheap food and drinks.

Our True Nature

There are a variety of perspectives as to this life and our purpose here. The disparity of perspectives is seemingly very complex and can lead to intense debates and even wars.

From my view I can see only two sides. Within those two sides there are many varying concepts that come from the original concept.

On one side there is a lone masculine deity who has sent out his followers to dominated the Earth and all of life. One other side there are many gods and goddesses, each creating, nurturing, managing and interacting with life. These many gods and goddesses all join into one god and goddess, being they are all various expression of the great Mother and the Father of all life, equal in all their creations.

The conflict between these two views began long ago, when a concept invaded the world like a virus, killing all who would not accept it. The concept of a sole masculine deity who rules all and commands his subjects to dominate and destroy all that he discerns as evil.

These followers corrupted the world with this view. Infesting all the corners of the Earth. Seeking to dominate and control our Mother, the Mother of all creation. From this there began a view of life where men were dominant and women were submissive to the man.

Now we are in a time when the views of old are returning and threatening this masculine deity of dominance and the terrible empire he has created. Because of this conflicts are arising all over the world. From within the home to governments and politics between nations. The battle is about one thing, the release of the Feminine (Earth) from the bondage imposed upon Her by the masculine deity of dominance.

One thing that can’t go unnoticed is how these pagan or new/old spiritual concepts are mainly being expressed and lived by women. There are many men who freely accept this view. They are usually men who also understand their own feminine to varying degrees.

Though it may not always look like it on the outside, this battle that is waging in all corners of this Earth at this time is a battle between the masculine and the feminine. There may be 1000s of differing troubles and injustices in the world but they all stem from one thing, the desire to dominate and control rather than creating, nurturing, allowing and returning.

A simple definition of our purpose and spiritual nature is to create, nurture our creations, allow our creations to express themselves and then we return to Source or Mother. There is no way this can be changed, no matter how much some might want to do so. Even the most powerful human will can’t defy the our true nature and the true cycle of life. It can only cause disruption and despair within our true nature. When living our true nature it is not an emulation of our God and Goddess. It is them. We are them.

The main conflict in the world is within ourselves and the ideas that we have chosen to live. Ideas are not life, they neither create nor do they express anything but a concept. They express an alternate reality that is nothing but a deception. The original lie.

Throughout history the followers of the masculine deity of dominance have been systematically eliminating our true nature by burning and killing those who would not accept and submit to it and it’s ways of destruction.

If there is evil, is this not the pure evil? The true original sin (lie). The destroyer of our original innocence and the corrupter of our true virtue.

If we resist evil then it will only continue to persist. An “eye for an eye” will not end this conflict. This is why love is so prominently expressed and spoken of by the feminine. Mother Earth continues to love, create and nurture even though She is hated.

As hard as it might seem to believe, only by returning to our true nature (love) within us will the destruction end and the original “Eden” be reborn.

Within Life

It is one thing to be able to see the water spring in the distance. It is another thing to actually get there.

There are many times when I have seen the water spring in the distance, feeling that I can see who I am and how I relate to the Earth and the Universe. It was much like looking at a painting and feeling that I am experiencing what the artist was experiencing while creating the painting when, in fact, I can only perceive through my own perspective what it may have been like. Many times this perspective is quite different than the perspective of the artist while painting.

Many times, when I have seen the water spring in the distance I felt that was enough. As long as I kept the spring in my line of sight then it was all I needed. The truth is that, between me and the spring was a dense, dark, almost cavernous forest I would have to pass through to get to the spring. If I were to go through this forest, arrive safely at the spring, what then? These are things that kept me from actually going to the spring.

The universe doesn’t think this way. Our task is to complete our spiritual journey here in the flesh within this limited physical realm. Each time I’ve tried to just go on with my life in the image of who I thought I was supposed to me, the more difficult life became. I was doing the things that were expected of me but they didn’t reap any reward. In fact, I didn’t even know what the reward was other than mere survival. It was an empty existence. Still I stubbornly continued on in my suffering.

With a sudden turn of events I found myself passing through the forest. At first it was a strange and bizarre experience. Viewing this life in ways I had never viewed it before. With each step new and stranger things appeared before me. The strange thing was that the anxiety and near constant fear I had felt at the edge of the forest was no longer. I was never able to pinpoint what is was that I was always in fear of there on the edge of the forest. It wasn’t until I was in the forest that I knew what it was that I feared. In some ways I thought I feared the forest. No, I feared the world there on the edge of the forest. I feared the society that was supposed to be our guiding force through this life.

Many people believe that, though there are gods and goddesses, we alone make our own choices. There are many ways to look at this statement. Yes, it is me who has to act, but what do I act upon? This was always the question. Then there is another aspect to this. It is not until I came to lay down in the water of the stream and place my faith in the universe to carry me to where I need to be, that I actually entered the forest. It was not just me, it was a combination of me and the divine. It was me who had to act through my submission to the Mother for Her to pick me up and carry me upon Her currents.

On my journey through the forest, I have come to see myself in a variety of ways. At one time it became very confusing when I could see within myself, both a male and a female aspect. There was some conflict within me but, through my faith in the Mother to carry me, I didn’t fight. It was much like going through a horror ride on a rail cart at an amusement park. Images passed before me. Monsters jumped out at me. I even screamed at times but the cart simply moved on to the next part of the house.

Where I am now is a much quieter part of the forest. I can even see the light at the parameter in the distance. Within me the male, who has been redefined by the divine and the female are perfect equals. This from within causes me to look at women on the outside and see them in a very different way. I can see the power of who they are as equals to me.

All my life I thought I was much a proponent of women’s rights and equality. It wasn’t until this point in the forest where I realized I didn’t truly see women as equal. This was because I didn’t see the female within me as equal. I saw here as a foolish child who needed to be controlled and protected. As a fragile beauty that had to contained rather than allowing her to be free. Because of this view of the female within me, this is also how I saw women. I adored their beauty and seeming innocence so much that I tried to keep them in a cage, their views to be heard but often seen as irrational or childlike.

After this realization, when I looked into the seeming innocent eyes of a woman, behind the color and eyeliner on her face, there was a power I had never before understood nor experienced. This power was not only in the woman but also within me. I am neither male nor female. I am both in equal proportions.

It was then when I came across Witchcraft or Wicca. This led me to see this very concept come alive in the relationship of all life as we know it and more. The interaction of the Sun, (God) with the Earth (Goddess). Both equals in the creation and nurturing of life. When I stood on the hillside within the forest and first saw this interaction of intercourse, I saw beauty as I had never before comprehended.

I fell to my knees in worship of this grand beauty beyond any beauty I had ever experienced. It was then that a hand touched my shoulder. I turned and saw the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. She was in female form as I had always known but She was more. She smiled to me with Her hand to me, pulling me to my feet. As I looked into Her eyes I instantly knew She is my Mother. The Mother of us all.

I immediately understood the power I am able to see within every woman. I also understood the same power within myself. She walked me from the forest. At first the light was harsh but as my vision cleared, I could see the spring far in the distance beyond rich and full meadows of life. Within the meadows flowed many small streams that carried life to the meadows.

As I looked upon this sight in amazement I turned to the Mother. She smiled and reached Her hand out, guiding me toward the grand meadows filled with life. I began to slowly walk into the tall grass with some hesitation. When I turned to Her for some reassurance, She was gone.

The grasses caressed my legs as the wind flowed among the strands. The Sun warmed my skin. The trees sheltered and embraced me. The birds flying freely overhead. The wolves running and playing within the meadows. I could see Her within all the life that surrounded me. Within the life that I am.