Positive Thinking

I saw a bird eating berries. As it flew away I could see the magic of nature. The bird ate the berries which gives it energy to live then it carries away the seeds of the berries and plants them elsewhere so berries might grow elsewhere.

As I envisioned this process it revealed the true magic of life. What really matters in life. The balance of life. I could see this process happening all around me.

They say that we should think positive. But what is positive? They say that positive is what feels good to each person. This means that positive has no actual definition other than what causes a person to feel good.

If things in life are going your way in life then you would view it as a positive. Does this mean that your positive is everyone’s positive?

When I watch a skyscraper being built I don’t view this as a positive. Yet, it is a positive to those who are building it and making millions of dollars. I see destruction as they see wealth. Universally, is that skyscraper a positive? Does it benefit nature?

Humans seems to stand outside of the magic of nature. The simply process of life. They have deemed their importance to be above that of nature. Their positives are not in align with the positives of life.

I read an article about how those who believe in climate change are often seen as hypocrites because they still do the things that they believe cause climate change. It was compared to cigarette smoking. People are so addicted to the way of life that they can’t stop, even though they know it is causing great damage.

Is this addiction actually a universal positive? That, just as with cigarette smoking, humans will simply keep doing what they are doing until they destroy themselves. They continue to live their human “positives” which are, in reality, a positive for nature because nature, which is ever patient, will win in the end.

It seems negative only to humans because they are the ones who are threatened by their own behavior.

Nature has tried over and over again to balance the human population yet humans have found ways to defy these methods of nature, deeming nature to be the enemy because they believe that she is trying to kill them. They fight against nature and with each temporary victory they declare this a positive.

When thinking of positives, it seems that positives often lead to negatives. They seem to go hand in hand just as life and death go hand in hand in nature. Humans think that it is a positive to extend their life expectancy but if this is not in balance with the births then it will actually be a negative.

Humans have a way of thinking more of themselves than they really are. From one time thinking the Earth was the center of the universe and now they see themselves as the central theme of the Earth. Their hunger for control is led by their need to feel good. To think positive. In the end, their addiction to feeling good may well lead them to their own demise.


Spiritual Journey

There are times when wish I could express my spiritual journey. Express it in ways that are concise and informative. Yet, if I were to try it would be an expression that would seem mysterious and even contradicting.

As I go deeper into my spiritual journey, I find that it is everything I expected it to be while being everything I would have never expected it to be. I pass through that which I never expected which reveals that which I expected.

One must seek the darkness in order to experience the light. If one seeks the light they find only darkness.

The one thing I know for sure. As I pass deeper into my spiritual journey, all that once seemed important is no longer important. What is now important is not of importance to the place where I once was.

I find myself shedding all that I once was and all the material things that defined who I once was. I do so with no feeling or regard to that person for that person was nothing more than an illusion. Now, as myself, I attach to few things. Only things that increase my connection to the Goddess and God. Knowledge, understanding, lesson learned. I have attained small trinkets that honor my path and the Goddess which I hold dear but still have no attachment to them.

There is no longer a plan. I live in each moment and experience more things in a single moment than I used to do while seeking out adventures in the world around me. In the dark caverns of self there are many unexplored places that reveal new and amazing things. The most difficult part is getting to them.

My connection to nature is almost eerie. Ravens simply appear in my life, coming to offer me messages. Mother Goddess reveals herself to me within the trees, grasses and flowers. Within the insects and animals that seem to speak to me in an unknown language that doesn’t contain sound.

At times. I feel so connected that it seems like I am being taken someplace. Like lying down on a stream of water with closed eyes and allowing it to carry me to where it is going. Not asking or caring where.

There really are no words to describe the spiritual journey. It isn’t easy. There are many paths one can take. In some ways, I chose the direct route because I have nothing to lose. Since I have nothing to lose, rather than end it all, I decided to begin.


What We Believe

We are what we believe. This is really all it seems to come down to in regards to our lives. Looking around at the many ideas, theories and concepts of life portrayed by many different people, it seems that there is a need to convince others of what they believe. It seems to be the root of all conflicts in the world.

There are many conspiracy theories roaming about in the collective consciousness. It is understandable because most all of us know that something just isn’t right in the world. We interact with the physical world and the “reality” that is being portrayed while, on the inside, we know things should be different. The problem is that we don’t really know what it is that should be different. We can see aspects that should be different but not the entirety of what is truly wrong, if anything.

There seems to be many people and groups vying for control. I can’t help but ask, “Why are they vying for control?” There are those who hunger for money so much that they spend every waking hour devising different ways to gain money. This never made any sense to me. If you have what you need, why do you need more?

There seems to be people and groups of people vying for control of our minds. Ideas and theories presented as facts are everywhere. They are like traps put out to capture us. Some are very well made using psychology to gain our attention and our belief in these ideas. Some look so good that we can’t help but fall into the trap.

The thing is that these traps seem to be everywhere. At home, the grocery store, the television, religion, the internet, just to name a few. All these things are used to implant ideas in our minds as to how we should look, feel, act and do. It is often like our lives are merely constant mass programming.

What do these people want and why do they want to control us? In some ways, the real battleground seems to be the collective consciousness. Like they are all fighting for control of the collective consciousness. This would make sense being that this is where all actual power originates. The more people who believe in something the more power that thing has in the collective consciousness.

There were times when the collective consciousness was more stable, but never secure. Now the collective consciousness seems to be very divided. This causes much confusion within us all, since we are all connected to the collective consciousness. No matter the ideas that state we are individuals, the fact will always remain that we are all connected to each other.

In some ways it’s like a person being chained to another person, both wanting to go in different directions. It could be said that, because of this, diversity of ideas are not a good thing. It would be much easier if all people adhered to the same ideas then it would stabilize the collective consciousness. Whether we know it or not, we are all very diverse within ourselves. This thought often causes conflict with others who believe that we are only one thing and can’t be multiple things.

It is true that we are all one thing. We are the universe. The physical universe is made up of many elements, not just one element. There are some who are seeking the sole element that is the mother of all elements. It is fine to spend their time doing this but it still remains that we are made up of a variety of elements. In simple terms, Earth (body), Air (breath), Water (blood), Fire (life force or spirit).

The Earth is one whole that is made up of millions of different things. Therefore we are made up of many different things. Some like to say that a man is a man and a woman is a woman, each need to take their place in life. Yet, if a person looks at themselves honestly, no matter their sex, they will find they are both. We were born of both male and female.

In the end, it seems to come down to what we each believe. What we prefer to add to the collective consciousness. If we seek destruction then that is what we add to the collective consciousness. If we seek peace then this is what we add to the collective consciousness. The Gods and Goddesses we believe are given power within the collective consciousness. The more people who believe in a particular God or Goddess increases the power of they have in the collective consciousness.

Ultimately, we are the contributors to the collective consciousness. What we contribute affects everyone else. It even affects the universe itself. Our lives are not what we produce and gain in the physical world. Our lives are what we contribute to the collective consciousness.

Beyond Belief

A few weeks ago I came home to find a flyer on my door. It was colorful and vibrant. It said there was going to be a picnic at the park with food, drinks and music. It was with a local Christian church. I laid the flyer down on the counter and didn’t think much of it.

As the day approached I didn’t having anything going on so I decided to go to the park for the picnic. It was nearby. An enjoyable walk.

As I came to the park I could hear the music. A live band playing modern Christian music. I didn’t think much of it. What’s a party without music? There were kids running about and mostly adults sitting at picnic table lined up.

There was a lot of food lined up on tables at the front of the set up. I walked around and observed. They played soccer out in the field. The mothers watched over the young ones as they wandered about getting into this and that. Some were playing on the playground equipment. Groups of men stood around talking while some women stood aside listening inattentively to whatever the men were saying. There were groups of women talking while children hastened about them.

All seemed normal so I went and filled a plate with food. Of course I had to pick and choose foods that I actually eat. I was able to find enough to enjoy. I passed on the sugary punches and sodas. I found some water which was perfect.

I sat at a table with other men sitting about talking. I didn’t say anything. One took notice of me and moved over to sit across from me. He smiled and introduced himself. I returned the nicety. He then said, “I haven’t seen you before.”

I looked at him and smiled, replying, “I haven’t see you before either.” He laughed seemingly uncomfortable. He could see that I’m not an open book to just anyone.

“A few weeks back I found a flyer on my door inviting me to this picnic. I wasn’t doing anything so I came to the picnic. Is this a problem?”

“Oh no, it’s no problem. You are very welcome here. I was just wondering if you were a new church member.”

“No. I’m not.” I said plainly, without any emotion then went back to eating. First I gave my love and gratitude to Mother Goddess by kissing a broccoli floret before eating it. It is how I say grace.

He stared at me as I was eating. I found this strange. He then seemed to find the courage to speak, as if it took courage to speak with me, “Would you like to attend our church. It is very nice and casual. We have music and prayers. The people are very friendly.”

“If the people here are part of your church then then do look very friendly. Thank you for the invite to your church but I don’t have any desire to worship your god. I just came here to be friendly and spend some time with people.”

“That’s fine.” he said. “We’re glad you came to the picnic. Enjoy yourself.”

“Thanks.” I said.

I continued eating slowing, enjoying watching the people and all the motion and commotion. The children are so fun to watch as they play and do what adults are no longer allowed to do.

As I was eating some apple pie, a little indulgence I couldn’t resist, the man slid back over. He had been watching me the entire time out of the corner of his eye. I was aware of this. “Can I ask you a question?”

“Depends, but we won’t know until you ask it.” I knew what was coming.

“Do you believe in out Savior Jesus Christ?”

I just looked at him and shook my head, not as an answer but out of sadness for him. He felt so compelled to know what I believed but nothing about me. I smiled, picked up my plate and walked away.

“It was just a simple question. I didn’t mean to offend you.” he called out behind me. I just smiled being that he hadn’t offended me. I simply have no desire to debate religion. I’ve been there before. I’ve had this very question posed to me so many times and, when I say that I worship a Goddess and a God, they just don’t know what to think. My answer doesn’t spur curiosity. It seems to create fear in them. The get defensive and start telling about their Christ. They like to say they are opened minded but so rarely do they want to know about me, only what I believe.

Truth is, I would be friends with them. I would come to their houses and enjoy dinner with them. I would even do the dishes afterward. Even though I don’t care much for sports I would watch a game with them. I would do all of this if they wanted to know me, not only see me by what I believe.

As I walked home I thought, “I am so tired of Christianity. Not angry, just tired of their constant badgering and pressure to believe what they believe.”

I knew what would happen before I went to the picnic, but I always like to hope that it would be different. I didn’t ask them to build a fire and all of us dance in a circle around it. I listened to their strange music without complaining. I enjoyed the company of all the people and experiencing them as themselves. Why is it so important that I believe what they believe? Sadly, the answer to this question and many others is, “Because the bible says so.”

This week I came home and found a flyer on my door. I was inviting me to a pool party at my apartment complex. It said there would be food, drinks and music. I thought, “That would be cool.” I then looked a the bottom of the flyer. The pool party is sponsored by the cable company. On the back of the flyer it showed deals for cable internet, phone and TV.

I had gone to these parties before. They seem innocent enough when I first get there. The food is cheap snack and little tiny cans of soda. As I walk in I have to go through a sales pitch. I threw the flyer away.

As I threw the flyer away I was reminded of the picnic at the park put on by the local church. They didn’t want my presence or friendship. They wanted to sell me their “Savior” in exchange for some food. Just as the cable company wanted to sell me a new cable package in exchange for some cheap food and drinks.

Our True Nature

There are a variety of perspectives as to this life and our purpose here. The disparity of perspectives is seemingly very complex and can lead to intense debates and even wars.

From my view I can see only two sides. Within those two sides there are many varying concepts that come from the original concept.

On one side there is a lone masculine deity who has sent out his followers to dominated the Earth and all of life. One other side there are many gods and goddesses, each creating, nurturing, managing and interacting with life. These many gods and goddesses all join into one god and goddess, being they are all various expression of the great Mother and the Father of all life, equal in all their creations.

The conflict between these two views began long ago, when a concept invaded the world like a virus, killing all who would not accept it. The concept of a sole masculine deity who rules all and commands his subjects to dominate and destroy all that he discerns as evil.

These followers corrupted the world with this view. Infesting all the corners of the Earth. Seeking to dominate and control our Mother, the Mother of all creation. From this there began a view of life where men were dominant and women were submissive to the man.

Now we are in a time when the views of old are returning and threatening this masculine deity of dominance and the terrible empire he has created. Because of this conflicts are arising all over the world. From within the home to governments and politics between nations. The battle is about one thing, the release of the Feminine (Earth) from the bondage imposed upon Her by the masculine deity of dominance.

One thing that can’t go unnoticed is how these pagan or new/old spiritual concepts are mainly being expressed and lived by women. There are many men who freely accept this view. They are usually men who also understand their own feminine to varying degrees.

Though it may not always look like it on the outside, this battle that is waging in all corners of this Earth at this time is a battle between the masculine and the feminine. There may be 1000s of differing troubles and injustices in the world but they all stem from one thing, the desire to dominate and control rather than creating, nurturing, allowing and returning.

A simple definition of our purpose and spiritual nature is to create, nurture our creations, allow our creations to express themselves and then we return to Source or Mother. There is no way this can be changed, no matter how much some might want to do so. Even the most powerful human will can’t defy the our true nature and the true cycle of life. It can only cause disruption and despair within our true nature. When living our true nature it is not an emulation of our God and Goddess. It is them. We are them.

The main conflict in the world is within ourselves and the ideas that we have chosen to live. Ideas are not life, they neither create nor do they express anything but a concept. They express an alternate reality that is nothing but a deception. The original lie.

Throughout history the followers of the masculine deity of dominance have been systematically eliminating our true nature by burning and killing those who would not accept and submit to it and it’s ways of destruction.

If there is evil, is this not the pure evil? The true original sin (lie). The destroyer of our original innocence and the corrupter of our true virtue.

If we resist evil then it will only continue to persist. An “eye for an eye” will not end this conflict. This is why love is so prominently expressed and spoken of by the feminine. Mother Earth continues to love, create and nurture even though She is hated.

As hard as it might seem to believe, only by returning to our true nature (love) within us will the destruction end and the original “Eden” be reborn.