My Outrage

Recently I’ve see and hear the phrase, “If you’re not outraged then you’re not paying attention.” I’ve seen the outrage and even rage of many “minority” people who are very upset about what is happening in the US today. I feel their outrage and agree with much that they have to say.

After the terrible violence and hate in Charlottesville, I was in shock. I had thoughts and feelings but no actual words to express how I felt. It has taken a week for me to actually get to the point of being able to express my feelings. Throughout the week, listening to and reading the tweets of 45 and his insanity. I myself, a white male, cannot call him “president.” He is not my president. I didn’t vote for him and I have absolutely no respect for him. There have been several presidents within my lifetime and some I didn’t agree with all their policies but I still respected them. I would never say what I am about to say in my outrage to any previous president on my lifetime, Fuck you, Trump.

To see the hate and division in the US now brings to mind that we are probably playing right into the hands of Putin, and a possible hidden agenda of 45 and his, possibly not insanity but intentionally dividing the country out of his loyalty to Putin. Putin is probably enjoying the sight and sounds of the US being torn apart.

As for where I stand and what outrages me.

I am outraged by feelings of hate toward any being, whether human or not. Yet, I heard myself say something contradictory to this statement. I heard myself say that I “hate” the white supremacists, nationalists, Nazis, racists, sexists. Okay, these are most of the words that everyone says is appropriate to describing these people. “Fuck you white plague bastards who think they are better than everyone else.” That sounds more like me.

I am outraged when I hear that women are treated without respect and their healthcare is determined by others, usually white men. For some reason I get crazy outraged when I hear of people calling breastfeeding in public lewd and obscene. Fuck you, people and your supposed “moral values.” It’s fucking natural you assholes.

I am outraged that racism still exists. I am so tired of humans dividing themselves by the color of their skin. I hate that I have to say things like, “I know some great black people.” or, “I know some great Latin people.” I won’t say it because they are people to me and I care about them as I would care about any other people who are worthy of my caring about them. I don’t care about the fucking white plague that ingests the world seeking complete domination over all other people that they declare as inferior.

As time goes I still have difficulty with declaring myself a human. Humans can do such beautiful things but they are also the most destructive being on the face to this planet. It is so strange to me that the only things that can stop the destructive humans are other humans. I feel such outrage at humans who think they are superior to nature and the Earth and all the beautiful beings upon this planet.

This is the beginning of my outrage, which may increase if I see more humans doing terrible things to other humans and all beings on this planet. I can no longer sit passively because this only causes me to feel helpless. It is time for me to stand up and say FUCK YOU!!!!, to what outrages me.

I might hate many of the people who are seeking greater division of the US and the world but I will not succumb to violence but, I won’t scold those who do come to violence while standing up against the white plague who think they are superior to other beings.

 

Tunnel Vision

The swirling, whirling world of human productivity
Captivated by their endeavors, like deer in headlights
A lifeform of trillions who’ve made their appearance here
Consuming and exhausting the Earth, Her resources
Discarding their waste anyplace but within their cages
Out of sight out of mind, this is their mantra

Going here and there
Doing this and that
Being and seeking to be
Achieving and believing
Striving and competing
They go on and on about their business
While reefs die
Glaciers melt
Soils become parched
Plastics wash up on shores
Air becomes toxic
Oceans acidity increases
Temperatures rise
Beings go extinct because they can’t keep up
Yet, they believe they are in the right
Nothing can stop them
Like deer in headlights, they stand firm in their ways
Accomplishing their goals (they place great importance on goals)

When will it end?
When they’ve accomplished their goal
The consumption of the Earth and all Her resources

 

City Sunrise

Summer sunrise saturates
the golden landscape with light
City arteries fill
with metal corpuscles of various colors
Hustling and bustling to their places of purpose
Glass reflects light in random directions
Ravens supervise from high rooftops
Pigeons cautiously peck at seeds
and drink from puddles remaining
after the nocturnal water ballet
Worms drawn out by the moisture
move across the concrete
by waves of muscular constriction
in a slow yet desperate race
with the inevitable arrival
of the moisture draining heat
as well as the appetite of birds
darting and chirping from branch to ground
seeking life sustaining energy
before the Sun’s rising power
fully reigns and dominates the day
causing life to recede into the shadows
of the Mother’s loving embrace

Within The Night

Whining, whirling sirens
Flashing brightly in the night
Voices in the distance
Offer opinions and insights
Waxing Moon in the heights
Nearer to giving birth

Flapping wings and squeaks
Invisibly pass through the air
Moths to light fulfilling their delight
Shouts in the distance
A battle for dominance
Sudden cries, then silence

Lights upon the wall
Expanding then disappearing
With each car passing
Whooshing like waves on the shore
Inconsistent rhythm
Seemingly never-ending

A barking dog, then another
Aggression and growls
Defending their territory
A shout, slap and a yipe
Silence in the night
A gray cat passes by, lurking

Crickets delightful screeching
Music of the night
Comes forth in the moments
When creatures pause movement
The sound fills the air
Memory inducing

Candlelight illumination
Incense burning elation
Celebratory adoration
Worshipful expression
Moonlight dedication
Offerings to the Goddess

Life Goes On

Cars
Whoosh, hiss, roar, honk, thump, squeak
Standing on the corner
Waiting to cross the street
Examining the clouds overhead
Mountains in the distance
Birds in the trees
Snake darting to the bushes
Wind on my face
Sun’s warmth on the skin
Thoughts in the mind
Feelings in the body

The light turns
Crossing the street
Cars lined
Idling impatiently
Engines churning and chugging
Exhaling fumes
Passing before their eyes
Silhouettes behind glass
Stepping up to the sidewalk
Looking behind
It begins again

Cars
Whoosh, hiss, roar, honk, thump, squeak
Walking upon the grass
Stepping over a snail in the shade
A robin feeds on a worm
Geese overhead in formation
Water flows beneath the trees
A cool breeze
Ducks swim about here and there
Blue sky with cotton ball clouds

Life goes on…

Positive Thinking

I saw a bird eating berries. As it flew away I could see the magic of nature. The bird ate the berries which gives it energy to live then it carries away the seeds of the berries and plants them elsewhere so berries might grow elsewhere.

As I envisioned this process it revealed the true magic of life. What really matters in life. The balance of life. I could see this process happening all around me.

They say that we should think positive. But what is positive? They say that positive is what feels good to each person. This means that positive has no actual definition other than what causes a person to feel good.

If things in life are going your way in life then you would view it as a positive. Does this mean that your positive is everyone’s positive?

When I watch a skyscraper being built I don’t view this as a positive. Yet, it is a positive to those who are building it and making millions of dollars. I see destruction as they see wealth. Universally, is that skyscraper a positive? Does it benefit nature?

Humans seems to stand outside of the magic of nature. The simply process of life. They have deemed their importance to be above that of nature. Their positives are not in align with the positives of life.

I read an article about how those who believe in climate change are often seen as hypocrites because they still do the things that they believe cause climate change. It was compared to cigarette smoking. People are so addicted to the way of life that they can’t stop, even though they know it is causing great damage.

Is this addiction actually a universal positive? That, just as with cigarette smoking, humans will simply keep doing what they are doing until they destroy themselves. They continue to live their human “positives” which are, in reality, a positive for nature because nature, which is ever patient, will win in the end.

It seems negative only to humans because they are the ones who are threatened by their own behavior.

Nature has tried over and over again to balance the human population yet humans have found ways to defy these methods of nature, deeming nature to be the enemy because they believe that she is trying to kill them. They fight against nature and with each temporary victory they declare this a positive.

When thinking of positives, it seems that positives often lead to negatives. They seem to go hand in hand just as life and death go hand in hand in nature. Humans think that it is a positive to extend their life expectancy but if this is not in balance with the births then it will actually be a negative.

Humans have a way of thinking more of themselves than they really are. From one time thinking the Earth was the center of the universe and now they see themselves as the central theme of the Earth. Their hunger for control is led by their need to feel good. To think positive. In the end, their addiction to feeling good may well lead them to their own demise.

Spiritual Journey

There are times when wish I could express my spiritual journey. Express it in ways that are concise and informative. Yet, if I were to try it would be an expression that would seem mysterious and even contradicting.

As I go deeper into my spiritual journey, I find that it is everything I expected it to be while being everything I would have never expected it to be. I pass through that which I never expected which reveals that which I expected.

One must seek the darkness in order to experience the light. If one seeks the light they find only darkness.

The one thing I know for sure. As I pass deeper into my spiritual journey, all that once seemed important is no longer important. What is now important is not of importance to the place where I once was.

I find myself shedding all that I once was and all the material things that defined who I once was. I do so with no feeling or regard to that person for that person was nothing more than an illusion. Now, as myself, I attach to few things. Only things that increase my connection to the Goddess and God. Knowledge, understanding, lesson learned. I have attained small trinkets that honor my path and the Goddess which I hold dear but still have no attachment to them.

There is no longer a plan. I live in each moment and experience more things in a single moment than I used to do while seeking out adventures in the world around me. In the dark caverns of self there are many unexplored places that reveal new and amazing things. The most difficult part is getting to them.

My connection to nature is almost eerie. Ravens simply appear in my life, coming to offer me messages. Mother Goddess reveals herself to me within the trees, grasses and flowers. Within the insects and animals that seem to speak to me in an unknown language that doesn’t contain sound.

At times. I feel so connected that it seems like I am being taken someplace. Like lying down on a stream of water with closed eyes and allowing it to carry me to where it is going. Not asking or caring where.

There really are no words to describe the spiritual journey. It isn’t easy. There are many paths one can take. In some ways, I chose the direct route because I have nothing to lose. Since I have nothing to lose, rather than end it all, I decided to begin.

 

Information Overload

There is a simple way to put me in a bad mood and even cause me to feel depressed. Just show me the news.

I don’t normally seek out the news. To me, the modern news media is like the National Enquirer. It’s just garbage. One day I turned on the TV, not knowing what channel that would appear. It was the local news talking about men in another state who had kidnapped, killed and then cut up a young woman.

Did I really need to know this?! How does this information benefit my life?

It doesn’t benefit my life. In fact, all it does it cause me to think, “Life here is really f-d up.”

The fact is that this type of news is being constantly broadcast. Negativity everywhere. And they wonder why so many people suffer anxiety and depression. One can only think that they know this and want the people to be living in a world of despair so they create one for them and constantly bombard them with these thoughts and images.

The interesting thing is how the news is presented. It is like watching an entertainment show. Everyone is smiling. They are playing around and having fun. The women are well built and attractive. All while they input these negative things into our minds. It seems like a trap to me.

Why then do people watch this garbage?

It might be because humans like to feel informed, even if that information doesn’t benefit them in the least. We were once taught that knowledge is power. Then the term changed to information is power. Both might be true but I think there is a difference between knowledge and information.

Knowledge is information that benefits your life. Not all information benefits our lives. The funny thing is, in this somewhat paranoid world we live in, some people feel that if they don’t know all they can know then they might be missing something. Again, it has all the makings of a trap.

Information can be beneficial. Information can be deceptive. When information is being transmitted constantly from countless outlets our minds can become bombarded with this information, unable to discern what is beneficial from what is deceptive. It comes so fast that many people simply believe the information without knowing the facts.

The truth is many people don’t even know who they truly are because they are so inundated with words and images of what others want us to think that they are truly lost. Hence the whole, “find myself” scenario.

When I hear that someone is “finding myself” my first thought is, “You are right here in front of me.” I understand though. The first step to finding oneself is to eliminate all the outside influences. Go to the place of silence away from the world. No one will ever find themselves within such a media infested world. There, after you have purged yourself of all the garbage this society has filled you with, you will find yourself.

In a society where stress and pressure is the norm we find that our lives are all about coping with the stress and pressure. A stress and pressure that often has nothing to do with us personally.

Our jobs push us to give all that we can give to them. This often leaves us with little left for those things that are truly important. Like families, our spirituality and simply allowing us to live our lives. They say that if we work hard we will be rewarded. Then they show us those few people who might have received some sort of reward but, of course, we don’t know the true story behind it all.

The truth is, every portrayal, be it from the news or any aspect of the media, only shows us one small part of the story. Only that which they want us to know. If we knew the truth, it might cause us to rethink the entire thing. If they overload us with information. Keep us so busy doing things that really don’t matter to us then “they” (whoever they are) can go on doing whatever it is that “they” are doing without us knowing because our minds are filled with the meaningless information they provide us.

The interesting thing is how people respond to this meaningless information. They often fight and bicker over the meaningless information. Taking it to heart and personalizing it. This gives it all a whole new dimension in meaninglessness. Not only do they hunger for meaningless information, they actually take the meaningless information so seriously that it becomes what they believe. Believing it so much as to fight others who might believe differently. They call this “Healthy debate. It’s what our country is all about.”

I don’t think there is a single person who really knows what this country is all about. I’ve even sent several letters to past presidents asking, “What does this country stand for?” I’ve yet to receive a single response. Truth is, it stands for whatever a person wants it to stand for. It has no real basis or foundation. It is what they say it is today. Tomorrow it will be something else.

So we go on living within this mess, hoping it will all change one day while we continue to contribute to the mess simply because we don’t know what else we can do.

What We Believe

We are what we believe. This is really all it seems to come down to in regards to our lives. Looking around at the many ideas, theories and concepts of life portrayed by many different people, it seems that there is a need to convince others of what they believe. It seems to be the root of all conflicts in the world.

There are many conspiracy theories roaming about in the collective consciousness. It is understandable because most all of us know that something just isn’t right in the world. We interact with the physical world and the “reality” that is being portrayed while, on the inside, we know things should be different. The problem is that we don’t really know what it is that should be different. We can see aspects that should be different but not the entirety of what is truly wrong, if anything.

There seems to be many people and groups vying for control. I can’t help but ask, “Why are they vying for control?” There are those who hunger for money so much that they spend every waking hour devising different ways to gain money. This never made any sense to me. If you have what you need, why do you need more?

There seems to be people and groups of people vying for control of our minds. Ideas and theories presented as facts are everywhere. They are like traps put out to capture us. Some are very well made using psychology to gain our attention and our belief in these ideas. Some look so good that we can’t help but fall into the trap.

The thing is that these traps seem to be everywhere. At home, the grocery store, the television, religion, the internet, just to name a few. All these things are used to implant ideas in our minds as to how we should look, feel, act and do. It is often like our lives are merely constant mass programming.

What do these people want and why do they want to control us? In some ways, the real battleground seems to be the collective consciousness. Like they are all fighting for control of the collective consciousness. This would make sense being that this is where all actual power originates. The more people who believe in something the more power that thing has in the collective consciousness.

There were times when the collective consciousness was more stable, but never secure. Now the collective consciousness seems to be very divided. This causes much confusion within us all, since we are all connected to the collective consciousness. No matter the ideas that state we are individuals, the fact will always remain that we are all connected to each other.

In some ways it’s like a person being chained to another person, both wanting to go in different directions. It could be said that, because of this, diversity of ideas are not a good thing. It would be much easier if all people adhered to the same ideas then it would stabilize the collective consciousness. Whether we know it or not, we are all very diverse within ourselves. This thought often causes conflict with others who believe that we are only one thing and can’t be multiple things.

It is true that we are all one thing. We are the universe. The physical universe is made up of many elements, not just one element. There are some who are seeking the sole element that is the mother of all elements. It is fine to spend their time doing this but it still remains that we are made up of a variety of elements. In simple terms, Earth (body), Air (breath), Water (blood), Fire (life force or spirit).

The Earth is one whole that is made up of millions of different things. Therefore we are made up of many different things. Some like to say that a man is a man and a woman is a woman, each need to take their place in life. Yet, if a person looks at themselves honestly, no matter their sex, they will find they are both. We were born of both male and female.

In the end, it seems to come down to what we each believe. What we prefer to add to the collective consciousness. If we seek destruction then that is what we add to the collective consciousness. If we seek peace then this is what we add to the collective consciousness. The Gods and Goddesses we believe are given power within the collective consciousness. The more people who believe in a particular God or Goddess increases the power of they have in the collective consciousness.

Ultimately, we are the contributors to the collective consciousness. What we contribute affects everyone else. It even affects the universe itself. Our lives are not what we produce and gain in the physical world. Our lives are what we contribute to the collective consciousness.