Each day I look upon the world and all the things that are going on. All the hate. All the racism. All the sexism. The climate change that is no longer some future event but is upon us. The destruction of the Earth for the consumption of humans.
As I look I wonder, “Why do I even care?”
My entire life is based on sacrifice for something that most people don’t even care about, life itself. I don’t drive a car. I think cars are loud annoyances that endlessly pollute the air that I breathe. I walk and ride my bike.
I don’t eat meat, mostly because I don’t care for eating meat. I also feel that the energy that comes from meat is bad energy because the beings whose lives were taken for the consumption of meat were treated so terribly.
I live a simple life. I don’t buy anything I don’t need. I have no desire for such things. I like to walk softly upon the Earth.
I also do these things for my own spiritual reasons. Truthfully, what I do is not a sacrifice but done out of love. Not perfectly by any means but my Goddess doesn’t require perfection as other God’s do. She simply asks for me to do what I do with love.
I can say that I am tired of hate, racism, sexism, and the destruction of the planet. To say this must mean that I am tired of life because these things are so prevalent in this human life.
I am older now. Why should I care? It doesn’t affect my life in any way. Why do I care that indigenous people around the world have been treated so terribly by white people? Why do I care that white people have murdered millions of people and enslaved others who are not of their color? Why do I care that women are treated as second rate beings around the world and even within my own country? Why do I care that people today are treated with such disregard and cast out to live without homes and dignity? I am a male and I am white, what difference is it to me?
Why do I care that people will continue consuming this Earth no matter what anyone does? That humanity is basically a self destructive being.
When I think of humanity being a self destructive being, I think of the “god’s and goddess’s” that created humans. There were five extinctions before humanity, all done by outside or natural forces. Maybe the deities were tired of monitoring the Earth so they created a being that will inherit then destroy themselves. It seems to be naturally programmed into humans to think only of themselves and ultimately destroy themselves. This would save the deities the work of having to clean up the Earth once it becomes overly populated. Humans would be an automatic extinction machine.
Why do I care? I really don’t know. It seems that I’ve been programmed differently than the rest of humanity. I love life. I love the Earth. There are many like me in the world but not enough to balance the world. Maybe this will change. I am not special. It is just who I am. I love my Goddess therefore I love Her creations, including myself.
So I continue on.