Spiritual Journey

There are times when wish I could express my spiritual journey. Express it in ways that are concise and informative. Yet, if I were to try it would be an expression that would seem mysterious and even contradicting.

As I go deeper into my spiritual journey, I find that it is everything I expected it to be while being everything I would have never expected it to be. I pass through that which I never expected which reveals that which I expected.

One must seek the darkness in order to experience the light. If one seeks the light they find only darkness.

The one thing I know for sure. As I pass deeper into my spiritual journey, all that once seemed important is no longer important. What is now important is not of importance to the place where I once was.

I find myself shedding all that I once was and all the material things that defined who I once was. I do so with no feeling or regard to that person for that person was nothing more than an illusion. Now, as myself, I attach to few things. Only things that increase my connection to the Goddess and God. Knowledge, understanding, lesson learned. I have attained small trinkets that honor my path and the Goddess which I hold dear but still have no attachment to them.

There is no longer a plan. I live in each moment and experience more things in a single moment than I used to do while seeking out adventures in the world around me. In the dark caverns of self there are many unexplored places that reveal new and amazing things. The most difficult part is getting to them.

My connection to nature is almost eerie. Ravens simply appear in my life, coming to offer me messages. Mother Goddess reveals herself to me within the trees, grasses and flowers. Within the insects and animals that seem to speak to me in an unknown language that doesn’t contain sound.

At times. I feel so connected that it seems like I am being taken someplace. Like lying down on a stream of water with closed eyes and allowing it to carry me to where it is going. Not asking or caring where.

There really are no words to describe the spiritual journey. It isn’t easy. There are many paths one can take. In some ways, I chose the direct route because I have nothing to lose. Since I have nothing to lose, rather than end it all, I decided to begin.

 

Information Overload

There is a simple way to put me in a bad mood and even cause me to feel depressed. Just show me the news.

I don’t normally seek out the news. To me, the modern news media is like the National Enquirer. It’s just garbage. One day I turned on the TV, not knowing what channel that would appear. It was the local news talking about men in another state who had kidnapped, killed and then cut up a young woman.

Did I really need to know this?! How does this information benefit my life?

It doesn’t benefit my life. In fact, all it does it cause me to think, “Life here is really f-d up.”

The fact is that this type of news is being constantly broadcast. Negativity everywhere. And they wonder why so many people suffer anxiety and depression. One can only think that they know this and want the people to be living in a world of despair so they create one for them and constantly bombard them with these thoughts and images.

The interesting thing is how the news is presented. It is like watching an entertainment show. Everyone is smiling. They are playing around and having fun. The women are well built and attractive. All while they input these negative things into our minds. It seems like a trap to me.

Why then do people watch this garbage?

It might be because humans like to feel informed, even if that information doesn’t benefit them in the least. We were once taught that knowledge is power. Then the term changed to information is power. Both might be true but I think there is a difference between knowledge and information.

Knowledge is information that benefits your life. Not all information benefits our lives. The funny thing is, in this somewhat paranoid world we live in, some people feel that if they don’t know all they can know then they might be missing something. Again, it has all the makings of a trap.

Information can be beneficial. Information can be deceptive. When information is being transmitted constantly from countless outlets our minds can become bombarded with this information, unable to discern what is beneficial from what is deceptive. It comes so fast that many people simply believe the information without knowing the facts.

The truth is many people don’t even know who they truly are because they are so inundated with words and images of what others want us to think that they are truly lost. Hence the whole, “find myself” scenario.

When I hear that someone is “finding myself” my first thought is, “You are right here in front of me.” I understand though. The first step to finding oneself is to eliminate all the outside influences. Go to the place of silence away from the world. No one will ever find themselves within such a media infested world. There, after you have purged yourself of all the garbage this society has filled you with, you will find yourself.

In a society where stress and pressure is the norm we find that our lives are all about coping with the stress and pressure. A stress and pressure that often has nothing to do with us personally.

Our jobs push us to give all that we can give to them. This often leaves us with little left for those things that are truly important. Like families, our spirituality and simply allowing us to live our lives. They say that if we work hard we will be rewarded. Then they show us those few people who might have received some sort of reward but, of course, we don’t know the true story behind it all.

The truth is, every portrayal, be it from the news or any aspect of the media, only shows us one small part of the story. Only that which they want us to know. If we knew the truth, it might cause us to rethink the entire thing. If they overload us with information. Keep us so busy doing things that really don’t matter to us then “they” (whoever they are) can go on doing whatever it is that “they” are doing without us knowing because our minds are filled with the meaningless information they provide us.

The interesting thing is how people respond to this meaningless information. They often fight and bicker over the meaningless information. Taking it to heart and personalizing it. This gives it all a whole new dimension in meaninglessness. Not only do they hunger for meaningless information, they actually take the meaningless information so seriously that it becomes what they believe. Believing it so much as to fight others who might believe differently. They call this “Healthy debate. It’s what our country is all about.”

I don’t think there is a single person who really knows what this country is all about. I’ve even sent several letters to past presidents asking, “What does this country stand for?” I’ve yet to receive a single response. Truth is, it stands for whatever a person wants it to stand for. It has no real basis or foundation. It is what they say it is today. Tomorrow it will be something else.

So we go on living within this mess, hoping it will all change one day while we continue to contribute to the mess simply because we don’t know what else we can do.

What We Believe

We are what we believe. This is really all it seems to come down to in regards to our lives. Looking around at the many ideas, theories and concepts of life portrayed by many different people, it seems that there is a need to convince others of what they believe. It seems to be the root of all conflicts in the world.

There are many conspiracy theories roaming about in the collective consciousness. It is understandable because most all of us know that something just isn’t right in the world. We interact with the physical world and the “reality” that is being portrayed while, on the inside, we know things should be different. The problem is that we don’t really know what it is that should be different. We can see aspects that should be different but not the entirety of what is truly wrong, if anything.

There seems to be many people and groups vying for control. I can’t help but ask, “Why are they vying for control?” There are those who hunger for money so much that they spend every waking hour devising different ways to gain money. This never made any sense to me. If you have what you need, why do you need more?

There seems to be people and groups of people vying for control of our minds. Ideas and theories presented as facts are everywhere. They are like traps put out to capture us. Some are very well made using psychology to gain our attention and our belief in these ideas. Some look so good that we can’t help but fall into the trap.

The thing is that these traps seem to be everywhere. At home, the grocery store, the television, religion, the internet, just to name a few. All these things are used to implant ideas in our minds as to how we should look, feel, act and do. It is often like our lives are merely constant mass programming.

What do these people want and why do they want to control us? In some ways, the real battleground seems to be the collective consciousness. Like they are all fighting for control of the collective consciousness. This would make sense being that this is where all actual power originates. The more people who believe in something the more power that thing has in the collective consciousness.

There were times when the collective consciousness was more stable, but never secure. Now the collective consciousness seems to be very divided. This causes much confusion within us all, since we are all connected to the collective consciousness. No matter the ideas that state we are individuals, the fact will always remain that we are all connected to each other.

In some ways it’s like a person being chained to another person, both wanting to go in different directions. It could be said that, because of this, diversity of ideas are not a good thing. It would be much easier if all people adhered to the same ideas then it would stabilize the collective consciousness. Whether we know it or not, we are all very diverse within ourselves. This thought often causes conflict with others who believe that we are only one thing and can’t be multiple things.

It is true that we are all one thing. We are the universe. The physical universe is made up of many elements, not just one element. There are some who are seeking the sole element that is the mother of all elements. It is fine to spend their time doing this but it still remains that we are made up of a variety of elements. In simple terms, Earth (body), Air (breath), Water (blood), Fire (life force or spirit).

The Earth is one whole that is made up of millions of different things. Therefore we are made up of many different things. Some like to say that a man is a man and a woman is a woman, each need to take their place in life. Yet, if a person looks at themselves honestly, no matter their sex, they will find they are both. We were born of both male and female.

In the end, it seems to come down to what we each believe. What we prefer to add to the collective consciousness. If we seek destruction then that is what we add to the collective consciousness. If we seek peace then this is what we add to the collective consciousness. The Gods and Goddesses we believe are given power within the collective consciousness. The more people who believe in a particular God or Goddess increases the power of they have in the collective consciousness.

Ultimately, we are the contributors to the collective consciousness. What we contribute affects everyone else. It even affects the universe itself. Our lives are not what we produce and gain in the physical world. Our lives are what we contribute to the collective consciousness.