A Time Of Change

Today, there are many changes happening. Many of these changes are important to all of our lives and other changes are not so important to everyone. In some instances, it seems that many changes are simply for the sake of change and really have no overall relevance.

I’ve been on this Earth long enough to experience many changes. To be honest, I don’t even recognize this current state of affairs of life in the US. It is not the same place where I grew up. This could be in part due to greater population. The population has grown immensely since I was growing up.

Today, many people focus on things that have no significance to me. Such as dress codes. I have no problem with how people want to dress. I do think that there is a place and time for certain types of dress. When a dress code policy is put into place at place of employment, it should be followed.

I don’t dress the same in my off time as I do at work. At work I abide by the dress code, which today are quite liberal in themselves relative to when I was in my 20s. Today I can wear jeans in good repair and just a collared shirt. Easy enough. In the past I had to wear a dress shirt, slacks and dress shoes. I didn’t mind it then, because it was just what I wore to work. When I was on my off time I could wear whatever I wanted.

This issue seems to be very important to young people today. They want to come to work in ripped jeans, tank top with bra straps hanging out. They like to wear leggings with nothing covering them, which pretty much shows us all their goods. They want to wear flips flops, tee shirts with slogans on them and, if they could get away with it, many would come dressed in sweatpants and even pajamas with slippers. This I can’t understand. Work is not home and these are things people would wear during times of leisure.

All the same, it is a continual complaint from young people. In a time of great change when women are seeking greater rights. When people of color are striving to be equal within the society and the fight against racism is going strong, here these young people are focused on breaking the dress codes at work and school. It comes up in nearly every meeting. I just shake my head when it comes up. These young people are continually pushing the boundaries every day. As if they wake up and think, “Maybe I can get away with this.” Why?, is my question. Just dress appropriately, make your money, go home and dress however you want.

They are constantly fighting dress codes at school. These dress codes are there to prepare students for real life. Of course, in this modern day, the young people are not prepared for real life based on their raising. They expect the world to revolve around them and their petty wants. If there is one thing I’ve learned in this life it is that I have had to pick my battles. Put effort into those things that have actual importance and affect the lives of people in more profound ways. Dress code is not one of those things. In fact, it doesn’t even make the top 1000 of my list.

In some ways, I just think to myself, “I’m on my way out and it is their world now. If makeup, eyelashes, fingernail polish, wearing expensive clothes that look like what a homeless person would be wearing is what they want to focus on, then so be it.

Like another manager said to me on the subject, “I can’t help but ask, ‘When you woke up this morning, what inclined you to think that what you are wearing is appropriate in general, let alone to come to work wearing.’ Then all I can is point it out, send them home to change. They dress appropriately for about three or four weeks then they go back to what they were wearing before.”

I myself have no idea what the youth of today are really striving for in this life but hopefully it leads to something. In this great time of change. They could be striving to make the world a better, greener and more open place. Many seem to be doing this. I can’t say that fighting a dress code will lead to anything significant. Maybe it is an expression of just how vain the US has become.



Being Human

Each day I wake to an even stranger world. One would think that as we age we would feel more at home in this strange place, for me it is quite the opposite.

I walk on this planet, feeling the connection to all living things but constantly come across the one contradiction within it all, humanity. I can understand the animals, insects, the trees etc and why they are here. As for humans, even being one myself, I just can’t see any good that comes from them. They take and take, destroy and destroy, even what they build is nothing but destruction of nature.

They see themselves as something special on this planet. Believing they are able to dominate the Earth and all Her creatures. That is, until nature shows the humans that they are nothing more than a nuisance upon the back of the Earth. Like a plague of fleas upon a child’s head.

Humans are one of the most insecure species on the planet. They have to be the best at everything. They are constantly having to deal with shame and guilt because it is what causes them to act. How they act based on these conditions is unpredictable. They might do as the other humans expect them to do or, they might rebel and go even further away from the human interpretation of reality, often causing humans even greater distress.

Humans like to feel in control. They like to believe that they are able to predict the outcomes of their interactions with other humans and even the universe. They are terribly afraid, even though they hide it behind false masks of confidence. They want to believe they are strong but they are actually very fragile. They simply can’t accept their place in the universe. Because of this it causes them much distress. Within them they know who they are but they are told to repress who they are and live for what others believe to be reality.

They are terribly afraid of death. They don’t even like to speak about it. Yet death is all around them every day, they choose to not see it. When they are forced to experience death, it is such an ordeal for them. One death of a loved one can affect them the rest of their lives. This seems strange being that death is a very common thing within the physical realm of life. If a person feels they have nothing in common with anyone else, they do have death in common with every being within this realm. It is the one thing that they all will experience for themselves one day.

Humans are such strange creatures. Both animal and something foreign to this planet. They belong on Earth yet they don’t belong on Earth. In most cases, they choose to live for the foreign part of themselves and try ever so hard to not believe that they are animals, as if it is something to be ashamed of.

There are some humans who are connected to the nature and understand they animals as well as this other side of which can’t fully be defined other than something that causes them to attack nature and the Earth. These other people seem to repress the foreign aspect of themselves and live more through their animal which connects them to all of the other life on this Earth.

Here lies much of the conflict between humans. Between those who repress their animal side and those who embrace their animal side. Those who repress their animal side feel very insecure around those who embrace their animal side and even tried to kill them all in a mass genocide.

Very strange indeed, these humans.

To be continued…that is, if humans survive themselves another day.

Positive Thinking

I saw a bird eating berries. As it flew away I could see the magic of nature. The bird ate the berries which gives it energy to live then it carries away the seeds of the berries and plants them elsewhere so berries might grow elsewhere.

As I envisioned this process it revealed the true magic of life. What really matters in life. The balance of life. I could see this process happening all around me.

They say that we should think positive. But what is positive? They say that positive is what feels good to each person. This means that positive has no actual definition other than what causes a person to feel good.

If things in life are going your way in life then you would view it as a positive. Does this mean that your positive is everyone’s positive?

When I watch a skyscraper being built I don’t view this as a positive. Yet, it is a positive to those who are building it and making millions of dollars. I see destruction as they see wealth. Universally, is that skyscraper a positive? Does it benefit nature?

Humans seems to stand outside of the magic of nature. The simply process of life. They have deemed their importance to be above that of nature. Their positives are not in align with the positives of life.

I read an article about how those who believe in climate change are often seen as hypocrites because they still do the things that they believe cause climate change. It was compared to cigarette smoking. People are so addicted to the way of life that they can’t stop, even though they know it is causing great damage.

Is this addiction actually a universal positive? That, just as with cigarette smoking, humans will simply keep doing what they are doing until they destroy themselves. They continue to live their human “positives” which are, in reality, a positive for nature because nature, which is ever patient, will win in the end.

It seems negative only to humans because they are the ones who are threatened by their own behavior.

Nature has tried over and over again to balance the human population yet humans have found ways to defy these methods of nature, deeming nature to be the enemy because they believe that she is trying to kill them. They fight against nature and with each temporary victory they declare this a positive.

When thinking of positives, it seems that positives often lead to negatives. They seem to go hand in hand just as life and death go hand in hand in nature. Humans think that it is a positive to extend their life expectancy but if this is not in balance with the births then it will actually be a negative.

Humans have a way of thinking more of themselves than they really are. From one time thinking the Earth was the center of the universe and now they see themselves as the central theme of the Earth. Their hunger for control is led by their need to feel good. To think positive. In the end, their addiction to feeling good may well lead them to their own demise.

Information Overload

There is a simple way to put me in a bad mood and even cause me to feel depressed. Just show me the news.

I don’t normally seek out the news. To me, the modern news media is like the National Enquirer. It’s just garbage. One day I turned on the TV, not knowing what channel that would appear. It was the local news talking about men in another state who had kidnapped, killed and then cut up a young woman.

Did I really need to know this?! How does this information benefit my life?

It doesn’t benefit my life. In fact, all it does it cause me to think, “Life here is really f-d up.”

The fact is that this type of news is being constantly broadcast. Negativity everywhere. And they wonder why so many people suffer anxiety and depression. One can only think that they know this and want the people to be living in a world of despair so they create one for them and constantly bombard them with these thoughts and images.

The interesting thing is how the news is presented. It is like watching an entertainment show. Everyone is smiling. They are playing around and having fun. The women are well built and attractive. All while they input these negative things into our minds. It seems like a trap to me.

Why then do people watch this garbage?

It might be because humans like to feel informed, even if that information doesn’t benefit them in the least. We were once taught that knowledge is power. Then the term changed to information is power. Both might be true but I think there is a difference between knowledge and information.

Knowledge is information that benefits your life. Not all information benefits our lives. The funny thing is, in this somewhat paranoid world we live in, some people feel that if they don’t know all they can know then they might be missing something. Again, it has all the makings of a trap.

Information can be beneficial. Information can be deceptive. When information is being transmitted constantly from countless outlets our minds can become bombarded with this information, unable to discern what is beneficial from what is deceptive. It comes so fast that many people simply believe the information without knowing the facts.

The truth is many people don’t even know who they truly are because they are so inundated with words and images of what others want us to think that they are truly lost. Hence the whole, “find myself” scenario.

When I hear that someone is “finding myself” my first thought is, “You are right here in front of me.” I understand though. The first step to finding oneself is to eliminate all the outside influences. Go to the place of silence away from the world. No one will ever find themselves within such a media infested world. There, after you have purged yourself of all the garbage this society has filled you with, you will find yourself.

In a society where stress and pressure is the norm we find that our lives are all about coping with the stress and pressure. A stress and pressure that often has nothing to do with us personally.

Our jobs push us to give all that we can give to them. This often leaves us with little left for those things that are truly important. Like families, our spirituality and simply allowing us to live our lives. They say that if we work hard we will be rewarded. Then they show us those few people who might have received some sort of reward but, of course, we don’t know the true story behind it all.

The truth is, every portrayal, be it from the news or any aspect of the media, only shows us one small part of the story. Only that which they want us to know. If we knew the truth, it might cause us to rethink the entire thing. If they overload us with information. Keep us so busy doing things that really don’t matter to us then “they” (whoever they are) can go on doing whatever it is that “they” are doing without us knowing because our minds are filled with the meaningless information they provide us.

The interesting thing is how people respond to this meaningless information. They often fight and bicker over the meaningless information. Taking it to heart and personalizing it. This gives it all a whole new dimension in meaninglessness. Not only do they hunger for meaningless information, they actually take the meaningless information so seriously that it becomes what they believe. Believing it so much as to fight others who might believe differently. They call this “Healthy debate. It’s what our country is all about.”

I don’t think there is a single person who really knows what this country is all about. I’ve even sent several letters to past presidents asking, “What does this country stand for?” I’ve yet to receive a single response. Truth is, it stands for whatever a person wants it to stand for. It has no real basis or foundation. It is what they say it is today. Tomorrow it will be something else.

So we go on living within this mess, hoping it will all change one day while we continue to contribute to the mess simply because we don’t know what else we can do.

What We Believe

We are what we believe. This is really all it seems to come down to in regards to our lives. Looking around at the many ideas, theories and concepts of life portrayed by many different people, it seems that there is a need to convince others of what they believe. It seems to be the root of all conflicts in the world.

There are many conspiracy theories roaming about in the collective consciousness. It is understandable because most all of us know that something just isn’t right in the world. We interact with the physical world and the “reality” that is being portrayed while, on the inside, we know things should be different. The problem is that we don’t really know what it is that should be different. We can see aspects that should be different but not the entirety of what is truly wrong, if anything.

There seems to be many people and groups vying for control. I can’t help but ask, “Why are they vying for control?” There are those who hunger for money so much that they spend every waking hour devising different ways to gain money. This never made any sense to me. If you have what you need, why do you need more?

There seems to be people and groups of people vying for control of our minds. Ideas and theories presented as facts are everywhere. They are like traps put out to capture us. Some are very well made using psychology to gain our attention and our belief in these ideas. Some look so good that we can’t help but fall into the trap.

The thing is that these traps seem to be everywhere. At home, the grocery store, the television, religion, the internet, just to name a few. All these things are used to implant ideas in our minds as to how we should look, feel, act and do. It is often like our lives are merely constant mass programming.

What do these people want and why do they want to control us? In some ways, the real battleground seems to be the collective consciousness. Like they are all fighting for control of the collective consciousness. This would make sense being that this is where all actual power originates. The more people who believe in something the more power that thing has in the collective consciousness.

There were times when the collective consciousness was more stable, but never secure. Now the collective consciousness seems to be very divided. This causes much confusion within us all, since we are all connected to the collective consciousness. No matter the ideas that state we are individuals, the fact will always remain that we are all connected to each other.

In some ways it’s like a person being chained to another person, both wanting to go in different directions. It could be said that, because of this, diversity of ideas are not a good thing. It would be much easier if all people adhered to the same ideas then it would stabilize the collective consciousness. Whether we know it or not, we are all very diverse within ourselves. This thought often causes conflict with others who believe that we are only one thing and can’t be multiple things.

It is true that we are all one thing. We are the universe. The physical universe is made up of many elements, not just one element. There are some who are seeking the sole element that is the mother of all elements. It is fine to spend their time doing this but it still remains that we are made up of a variety of elements. In simple terms, Earth (body), Air (breath), Water (blood), Fire (life force or spirit).

The Earth is one whole that is made up of millions of different things. Therefore we are made up of many different things. Some like to say that a man is a man and a woman is a woman, each need to take their place in life. Yet, if a person looks at themselves honestly, no matter their sex, they will find they are both. We were born of both male and female.

In the end, it seems to come down to what we each believe. What we prefer to add to the collective consciousness. If we seek destruction then that is what we add to the collective consciousness. If we seek peace then this is what we add to the collective consciousness. The Gods and Goddesses we believe are given power within the collective consciousness. The more people who believe in a particular God or Goddess increases the power of they have in the collective consciousness.

Ultimately, we are the contributors to the collective consciousness. What we contribute affects everyone else. It even affects the universe itself. Our lives are not what we produce and gain in the physical world. Our lives are what we contribute to the collective consciousness.

Beyond Belief

A few weeks ago I came home to find a flyer on my door. It was colorful and vibrant. It said there was going to be a picnic at the park with food, drinks and music. It was with a local Christian church. I laid the flyer down on the counter and didn’t think much of it.

As the day approached I didn’t having anything going on so I decided to go to the park for the picnic. It was nearby. An enjoyable walk.

As I came to the park I could hear the music. A live band playing modern Christian music. I didn’t think much of it. What’s a party without music? There were kids running about and mostly adults sitting at picnic table lined up.

There was a lot of food lined up on tables at the front of the set up. I walked around and observed. They played soccer out in the field. The mothers watched over the young ones as they wandered about getting into this and that. Some were playing on the playground equipment. Groups of men stood around talking while some women stood aside listening inattentively to whatever the men were saying. There were groups of women talking while children hastened about them.

All seemed normal so I went and filled a plate with food. Of course I had to pick and choose foods that I actually eat. I was able to find enough to enjoy. I passed on the sugary punches and sodas. I found some water which was perfect.

I sat at a table with other men sitting about talking. I didn’t say anything. One took notice of me and moved over to sit across from me. He smiled and introduced himself. I returned the nicety. He then said, “I haven’t seen you before.”

I looked at him and smiled, replying, “I haven’t see you before either.” He laughed seemingly uncomfortable. He could see that I’m not an open book to just anyone.

“A few weeks back I found a flyer on my door inviting me to this picnic. I wasn’t doing anything so I came to the picnic. Is this a problem?”

“Oh no, it’s no problem. You are very welcome here. I was just wondering if you were a new church member.”

“No. I’m not.” I said plainly, without any emotion then went back to eating. First I gave my love and gratitude to Mother Goddess by kissing a broccoli floret before eating it. It is how I say grace.

He stared at me as I was eating. I found this strange. He then seemed to find the courage to speak, as if it took courage to speak with me, “Would you like to attend our church. It is very nice and casual. We have music and prayers. The people are very friendly.”

“If the people here are part of your church then then do look very friendly. Thank you for the invite to your church but I don’t have any desire to worship your god. I just came here to be friendly and spend some time with people.”

“That’s fine.” he said. “We’re glad you came to the picnic. Enjoy yourself.”

“Thanks.” I said.

I continued eating slowing, enjoying watching the people and all the motion and commotion. The children are so fun to watch as they play and do what adults are no longer allowed to do.

As I was eating some apple pie, a little indulgence I couldn’t resist, the man slid back over. He had been watching me the entire time out of the corner of his eye. I was aware of this. “Can I ask you a question?”

“Depends, but we won’t know until you ask it.” I knew what was coming.

“Do you believe in out Savior Jesus Christ?”

I just looked at him and shook my head, not as an answer but out of sadness for him. He felt so compelled to know what I believed but nothing about me. I smiled, picked up my plate and walked away.

“It was just a simple question. I didn’t mean to offend you.” he called out behind me. I just smiled being that he hadn’t offended me. I simply have no desire to debate religion. I’ve been there before. I’ve had this very question posed to me so many times and, when I say that I worship a Goddess and a God, they just don’t know what to think. My answer doesn’t spur curiosity. It seems to create fear in them. The get defensive and start telling about their Christ. They like to say they are opened minded but so rarely do they want to know about me, only what I believe.

Truth is, I would be friends with them. I would come to their houses and enjoy dinner with them. I would even do the dishes afterward. Even though I don’t care much for sports I would watch a game with them. I would do all of this if they wanted to know me, not only see me by what I believe.

As I walked home I thought, “I am so tired of Christianity. Not angry, just tired of their constant badgering and pressure to believe what they believe.”

I knew what would happen before I went to the picnic, but I always like to hope that it would be different. I didn’t ask them to build a fire and all of us dance in a circle around it. I listened to their strange music without complaining. I enjoyed the company of all the people and experiencing them as themselves. Why is it so important that I believe what they believe? Sadly, the answer to this question and many others is, “Because the bible says so.”

This week I came home and found a flyer on my door. I was inviting me to a pool party at my apartment complex. It said there would be food, drinks and music. I thought, “That would be cool.” I then looked a the bottom of the flyer. The pool party is sponsored by the cable company. On the back of the flyer it showed deals for cable internet, phone and TV.

I had gone to these parties before. They seem innocent enough when I first get there. The food is cheap snack and little tiny cans of soda. As I walk in I have to go through a sales pitch. I threw the flyer away.

As I threw the flyer away I was reminded of the picnic at the park put on by the local church. They didn’t want my presence or friendship. They wanted to sell me their “Savior” in exchange for some food. Just as the cable company wanted to sell me a new cable package in exchange for some cheap food and drinks.