Each day I wake to an even stranger world. One would think that as we age we would feel more at home in this strange place, for me it is quite the opposite.
I walk on this planet, feeling the connection to all living things but constantly come across the one contradiction within it all, humanity. I can understand the animals, insects, the trees etc and why they are here. As for humans, even being one myself, I just can’t see any good that comes from them. They take and take, destroy and destroy, even what they build is nothing but destruction of nature.
They see themselves as something special on this planet. Believing they are able to dominate the Earth and all Her creatures. That is, until nature shows the humans that they are nothing more than a nuisance upon the back of the Earth. Like a plague of fleas upon a child’s head.
Humans are one of the most insecure species on the planet. They have to be the best at everything. They are constantly having to deal with shame and guilt because it is what causes them to act. How they act based on these conditions is unpredictable. They might do as the other humans expect them to do or, they might rebel and go even further away from the human interpretation of reality, often causing humans even greater distress.
Humans like to feel in control. They like to believe that they are able to predict the outcomes of their interactions with other humans and even the universe. They are terribly afraid, even though they hide it behind false masks of confidence. They want to believe they are strong but they are actually very fragile. They simply can’t accept their place in the universe. Because of this it causes them much distress. Within them they know who they are but they are told to repress who they are and live for what others believe to be reality.
They are terribly afraid of death. They don’t even like to speak about it. Yet death is all around them every day, they choose to not see it. When they are forced to experience death, it is such an ordeal for them. One death of a loved one can affect them the rest of their lives. This seems strange being that death is a very common thing within the physical realm of life. If a person feels they have nothing in common with anyone else, they do have death in common with every being within this realm. It is the one thing that they all will experience for themselves one day.
Humans are such strange creatures. Both animal and something foreign to this planet. They belong on Earth yet they don’t belong on Earth. In most cases, they choose to live for the foreign part of themselves and try ever so hard to not believe that they are animals, as if it is something to be ashamed of.
There are some humans who are connected to the nature and understand they animals as well as this other side of which can’t fully be defined other than something that causes them to attack nature and the Earth. These other people seem to repress the foreign aspect of themselves and live more through their animal which connects them to all of the other life on this Earth.
Here lies much of the conflict between humans. Between those who repress their animal side and those who embrace their animal side. Those who repress their animal side feel very insecure around those who embrace their animal side and even tried to kill them all in a mass genocide.
Very strange indeed, these humans.
To be continued…that is, if humans survive themselves another day.